I have the loudest fucking fridge in the universe. The frigging thing sounds like belt buckles being washed in the spin cycle. Maybe it is that I have too much time on my hands and not enough personal noise to distract me but its jusck freaking annoying. I guess its not as annoying as the chinese glee club that meets in the townhouse beside me... bwoy are THEY annoying.
Picture: chinese immigrants gathered around a piano-playing fellow immigrant
Sound: christian hymns sung in all the english the poorly educated immigrants can muster
Effect: A dizzying state of nausea
Luckily my phone is ringing...
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Wednesday, January 31, 2007
All that jazz
I notice that I have been posting on love a lot these days. Hmmn.. deep...
Anyway, single life is bound to get to any fiercely independent woman after a while.
Its nice to have someone to share with, cook for, lyme with, travel with, romp with, fight with and all that jazz.
Anyway.. i tired. Long day doing a job I despise. I am going to go off into Paradise by Toni Morrison.
Anyway, single life is bound to get to any fiercely independent woman after a while.
Its nice to have someone to share with, cook for, lyme with, travel with, romp with, fight with and all that jazz.
Anyway.. i tired. Long day doing a job I despise. I am going to go off into Paradise by Toni Morrison.
Do you know
by Mr. Vegas
WE COME A LONG WAY WHAT A SWEET LOVE STORY
MEMBER THE DAYS WHEN YOU USE TO ADORE ME
ALL THE LOVING AND THE TIME YOU GAVE ME
A WEH MI AGO GET THAT FROM NOW BABY
THREE MONTHS NOW MI CAAN BELIEVE THAT YOU GONE
IS LIKE YUH LEAVE MI PON DI GREAT CHINA WALL
CANN BELIEVE SHE BAD MAN LIKE ME ALL A BAWL
A EVERY NIGHT A YOUR NAME MI CALL
CHORUS
DO YOU KNOW HOW TO MISS SOMEONE
IF YOU'RE IN LOVE YOU'LL UNDERSTAND
CAUSE WHEN YOU LOVE SOMEONE
AND YOU LOST THAT ONE IT'S HARD TO CARRY ON
SO HARD TO CARRY ON
I SAY DO YOU KNOW TO MISS SOMEONE
IF YOU'RE IN LOVE YOU'LL UNDERSTAND
CAUSE WHEN YOU LOVE SOMEONE
AND YOU LOST THAT ONE IT HARD TO CARRY ON
VERSE 2
SO MI COME HOME FROM WORK AND THE HOUSE FELL EMPTY
NOT EVEN THE SCENT A DI FOOD FI GREET MI
MI SHOULDA PICK UP THE MESSAGE YUH A SEND MI
FROM THE DAY THAT YUH STOP DO MI LAUNDRY
THREE MONTHS NOW MI CAAN BELIEVE THAT YUH GONE
MI HOUSE EMPTY LIKE WHEN GADAFFI KEEP DANCE
MY SOUND A PLAY AND YUH NUH DEH IN A DI LAWN
WOMAN TELL MI WHICH PART YUH GONE
CHORUS REPEATS 2X
WE COME A LONG WAY WHAT A SWEET LOVE STORY
MEMBER THE DAYS WHEN YOU USE TO ADORE ME
ALL THE LOVING AND THE TIME YOU GAVE ME
A WEH MI AGO GET THAT FROM NOW BABY
THREE MONTHS NOW MI CAAN BELIEVE THAT YOU GONE
IS LIKE YUH LEAVE MI PON DI GREAT CHINA WALL
CANN BELIEVE SHE BAD MAN LIKE ME ALL A BAWL
A EVERY NIGHT A YOUR NAME MI CALL
CHORUS
DO YOU KNOW HOW TO MISS SOMEONE
IF YOU'RE IN LOVE YOU'LL UNDERSTAND
CAUSE WHEN YOU LOVE SOMEONE
AND YOU LOST THAT ONE IT'S HARD TO CARRY ON
SO HARD TO CARRY ON
I SAY DO YOU KNOW TO MISS SOMEONE
IF YOU'RE IN LOVE YOU'LL UNDERSTAND
CAUSE WHEN YOU LOVE SOMEONE
AND YOU LOST THAT ONE IT HARD TO CARRY ON
VERSE 2
SO MI COME HOME FROM WORK AND THE HOUSE FELL EMPTY
NOT EVEN THE SCENT A DI FOOD FI GREET MI
MI SHOULDA PICK UP THE MESSAGE YUH A SEND MI
FROM THE DAY THAT YUH STOP DO MI LAUNDRY
THREE MONTHS NOW MI CAAN BELIEVE THAT YUH GONE
MI HOUSE EMPTY LIKE WHEN GADAFFI KEEP DANCE
MY SOUND A PLAY AND YUH NUH DEH IN A DI LAWN
WOMAN TELL MI WHICH PART YUH GONE
CHORUS REPEATS 2X
Monday, January 29, 2007
Black is the colour of my true love's hair
...
After a weekend of R&R (sans the romance), I have come home with a burgeoning ache for just that.
Not hot passionate sex, but lovemaking of the kind that you can only share with a true love.
I vividly remember the emotion, the tremendous sense of satiety, peace, fear, passion, and intense desire all wrapped up into one continuous emotion. I could dream then... about a future... about the plural concepts of us and we together. About a small and intimate country wedding, children running wild, dogs, huge vegetable gardens and growing old together on rocking chairs on a lovely countryside verandah. I saw the vision clearly- the fights, the misgivings, the rifts and the bridges that would always help us find our way back to each other- our love and our children.
These moments scare me.
But they shouldn't -at least I know my childish enthusiasm is still alive and I am still open to dreaming my most intimate dreams. Love is the dream of the young and foolish and the old and lonely- the most siginificant contribution to a meaningful existence.
Yet my love is out there... hanging bright like a star in the night...just waiting to lead me home.
I'm ready when you are.
...
After a weekend of R&R (sans the romance), I have come home with a burgeoning ache for just that.
Not hot passionate sex, but lovemaking of the kind that you can only share with a true love.
I vividly remember the emotion, the tremendous sense of satiety, peace, fear, passion, and intense desire all wrapped up into one continuous emotion. I could dream then... about a future... about the plural concepts of us and we together. About a small and intimate country wedding, children running wild, dogs, huge vegetable gardens and growing old together on rocking chairs on a lovely countryside verandah. I saw the vision clearly- the fights, the misgivings, the rifts and the bridges that would always help us find our way back to each other- our love and our children.
These moments scare me.
But they shouldn't -at least I know my childish enthusiasm is still alive and I am still open to dreaming my most intimate dreams. Love is the dream of the young and foolish and the old and lonely- the most siginificant contribution to a meaningful existence.
Yet my love is out there... hanging bright like a star in the night...just waiting to lead me home.
I'm ready when you are.
...
Sunday, January 28, 2007
The Blue Beat
I had a quiet weekend in Montego Bay.
I read.
I slept.
I ate.
I walked.
I sunbathed.
I did some yoga.
I listened to and watched jazz in the making.
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Monday, January 22, 2007
No Borrow Goods Round Here
I think its time I settled in a monogamous relationship... you know the "one unto another foresaking all all others" kinda relationship. I dont know about the "till death do us part" bit but I think its time I really opened up myself to love again.
It doesn't have to be passionate flaming love, in fact it better not be... you know what they say about playing with fire, and my skin is stiff rough from previous third degree burns.
So I guess I'll be looking for a respectful and spiritually rewarding relationship.
Sometimes I think I shoot myself in the foot because I come across so many great men.. but ...I dont handle compromise very well. There is one particular gent who is charming to this day but I really should have met him 20 years ago. Yes, I know I was only 6 then but I was speaking figuratively.
If anybody told me that I would be writing posts like these at 6 am, after a hiatus of three years from the long term relationship scene, what would I have said?
My life has turned out to be damn good in very many ways, of which I am very grateful but in moments like these, it sho helps to have someone beside me to wake up and mope to.
...
It doesn't have to be passionate flaming love, in fact it better not be... you know what they say about playing with fire, and my skin is stiff rough from previous third degree burns.
So I guess I'll be looking for a respectful and spiritually rewarding relationship.
Sometimes I think I shoot myself in the foot because I come across so many great men.. but ...I dont handle compromise very well. There is one particular gent who is charming to this day but I really should have met him 20 years ago. Yes, I know I was only 6 then but I was speaking figuratively.
If anybody told me that I would be writing posts like these at 6 am, after a hiatus of three years from the long term relationship scene, what would I have said?
My life has turned out to be damn good in very many ways, of which I am very grateful but in moments like these, it sho helps to have someone beside me to wake up and mope to.
...
Sleepless in New Kingston
I have been up for a few hours after having not slept well through the night... due to a minor medical discomfort. I will have to go see my doc this morning. Which brings me to this question: why the hell do doctors have to show up to their private practice so late?, i mean for fuck sake, its bad enough that you have to wait until the next morning but waiting until 11am for them to walk in while you join the line behind those who have appointements is thoroughly frustrating!
I guess the next best thing is to find me a bf who is a doc.
I guess the next best thing is to find me a bf who is a doc.
Tuesday, January 09, 2007
It Must be the Air
Something fabulously crazy is going on... things just seem to be aligning themselves in my life. I mean, the struggles are imminent, but in this moment, all things just seem ordered.
2007 is off with a bang. Maybe I woke up with invisible rose coloured glasses, but suddenly, the job that was such a bore and going nowhere is not so bad. Yes I could do with more leave and MUCH better health insurance but... just by showing up, I get an increase on already decent salary... that aint so bad afterall eh?
Plus dont ask me how, but I have been able to convince these people in the short time that I have been here, to increase my budget by over 125%!!! I mean, I heard Friday, but it only sank in today.
Things arent really that bad! Yes they expect me to wear suits (yuck), and closed up shoes (louder yuck), and be here at 8:30 day (screaming nasty)... but honestly, right now I can take 28 days live, can call in sick for an additional 13, could request another 7 if some close relative/ loved one kicks the bucket, get 3 for study leave, and another 7 if I have a serious personal emergency. But the best part is that I can actually plan ahead, securing a future for myself and my ma and sisters. I can plan to go to Europe in the summer and will get the leave without question.
Life is truly beautiful!!
I hope I remember I actually wrote a post like this on those days when I dont feel like getting out of bed!
2007 is off with a bang. Maybe I woke up with invisible rose coloured glasses, but suddenly, the job that was such a bore and going nowhere is not so bad. Yes I could do with more leave and MUCH better health insurance but... just by showing up, I get an increase on already decent salary... that aint so bad afterall eh?
Plus dont ask me how, but I have been able to convince these people in the short time that I have been here, to increase my budget by over 125%!!! I mean, I heard Friday, but it only sank in today.
Things arent really that bad! Yes they expect me to wear suits (yuck), and closed up shoes (louder yuck), and be here at 8:30 day (screaming nasty)... but honestly, right now I can take 28 days live, can call in sick for an additional 13, could request another 7 if some close relative/ loved one kicks the bucket, get 3 for study leave, and another 7 if I have a serious personal emergency. But the best part is that I can actually plan ahead, securing a future for myself and my ma and sisters. I can plan to go to Europe in the summer and will get the leave without question.
Life is truly beautiful!!
I hope I remember I actually wrote a post like this on those days when I dont feel like getting out of bed!
Monday, January 08, 2007
No Compromising of Genes
Not becausing seh mi know seh mi have me fair share of pretty looks mean to say me going to compromise them by deh-ing wid a ugly man- no ugly man roun 'ere!
Now you think mi coulda so precocious fi fly inna God face after him bless me wid likkle good looks fi go dash it way just sake a one ugly man? No sah! If me cannot gimme pickney dem anyting, else, mi haffi gi dem a fighting chance in dis world.
How could mi as dem mumma even look inna dem face and smile much less have some ugly gremlin looking baby a breastfeed? Dem woulda must have colic because is bere bad mind milk dem woulda drink.
I dont like ugliness... and nuh cater how yuh waan pretty it up... ugly people have a very hard time getting by in dis dog-eat-dog world. Is better you born pretty and foo fool dan show up ugly...and mi ave a warning fi any potential offspring who want draw pon some latent ugly gene inna my body...if you nuh come out right, mi will simply push yuh back which part yuh come from with a note that say "return to sender." Mi nuh inna dat deh ray ray.
Me is not a ooman who gwine to defend "pretty backra massa hair" and light skin... but lawd a massy... good face and teet worth more than it weight in gold.
So ... fi all a unno.. bright sophisticated, learned, ambitious, and financially stable man who hear seh mi single and reviewing applications.... UGLY MEN NEED NOT APPLY!
Now you think mi coulda so precocious fi fly inna God face after him bless me wid likkle good looks fi go dash it way just sake a one ugly man? No sah! If me cannot gimme pickney dem anyting, else, mi haffi gi dem a fighting chance in dis world.
How could mi as dem mumma even look inna dem face and smile much less have some ugly gremlin looking baby a breastfeed? Dem woulda must have colic because is bere bad mind milk dem woulda drink.
I dont like ugliness... and nuh cater how yuh waan pretty it up... ugly people have a very hard time getting by in dis dog-eat-dog world. Is better you born pretty and foo fool dan show up ugly...and mi ave a warning fi any potential offspring who want draw pon some latent ugly gene inna my body...if you nuh come out right, mi will simply push yuh back which part yuh come from with a note that say "return to sender." Mi nuh inna dat deh ray ray.
Me is not a ooman who gwine to defend "pretty backra massa hair" and light skin... but lawd a massy... good face and teet worth more than it weight in gold.
So ... fi all a unno.. bright sophisticated, learned, ambitious, and financially stable man who hear seh mi single and reviewing applications.... UGLY MEN NEED NOT APPLY!
Saturday, January 06, 2007
Free, Single & Disengaged
This may sound strange, but as much as I look forward to one day marrying and having chilrun, I am completely happy with my current single status.
Seriously, my eggs have a good 10 years on them... I have time on my side.
Its fantastic to have been free to actually carve out my own identity and really get to understand who I am and what I want to be without being confined by the roles of wife and mother. Dont get me wrong, i will happily embrace those roles when the time is right... but now aint the time. Every year, i say "next year"... not such a bad deal. This year is my travelling and CRITICAL investing year.
Right now, the only thing that is important is having good company to share experiences along the way.
I am really looking forward to new experiences this year. The older I get, the more I want under my belt. Life is short and unexpected, actively living makes it more meaningful.
Seriously, my eggs have a good 10 years on them... I have time on my side.
Its fantastic to have been free to actually carve out my own identity and really get to understand who I am and what I want to be without being confined by the roles of wife and mother. Dont get me wrong, i will happily embrace those roles when the time is right... but now aint the time. Every year, i say "next year"... not such a bad deal. This year is my travelling and CRITICAL investing year.
Right now, the only thing that is important is having good company to share experiences along the way.
I am really looking forward to new experiences this year. The older I get, the more I want under my belt. Life is short and unexpected, actively living makes it more meaningful.
Thursday, January 04, 2007
New Year...New Leaves
I have a few resolutions this year... in fact, about 10 general ones and 6 devoted to fitness.
FITNESS GOALS:
1. Lose 25lbs ( I am 5'6 and 164bs currently, I can WELL afford to)
2. Be itsy bitsy bling string bikini ready (aka ripped) by Aug
3. Hike to Blue Mountain Peak
4. Take part in at least 1 5k
5. Take part in at least 1 Half Marathon
6. Practice yoga in scenic places on a weekend
GENERAL GOALS:
1. Buy property (or at least mortgage approval)
2. Submit thesis to complete masters
3. Further diversify investment portfolio and increase to 30% of income
4. Pay off credit cards, and use only one card. All monthly charges MUST be paid in FULL.
5. Get a GOOD job
6. Start my own business
7. Do more work in television
8. Travel to Ireland, London & Paris
9. Buy a digital SLR professional camera
10. Buy an iPod (yes..this is an actual goal of mine)
The camera and the iPod and travel are my three lavish items for spending.
Europe USD$4,000
Camera USD$1,300
iPod USD$ 400
TOTAL $5,700
DONT ask me how I want to get mortgage approval and buy property and STILL spend like 6,000 dollars. I guess I am REALLY going to have to hustle real hard.
Anybody want some negroid hair to buy?
FITNESS GOALS:
1. Lose 25lbs ( I am 5'6 and 164bs currently, I can WELL afford to)
2. Be itsy bitsy bling string bikini ready (aka ripped) by Aug
3. Hike to Blue Mountain Peak
4. Take part in at least 1 5k
5. Take part in at least 1 Half Marathon
6. Practice yoga in scenic places on a weekend
GENERAL GOALS:
1. Buy property (or at least mortgage approval)
2. Submit thesis to complete masters
3. Further diversify investment portfolio and increase to 30% of income
4. Pay off credit cards, and use only one card. All monthly charges MUST be paid in FULL.
5. Get a GOOD job
6. Start my own business
7. Do more work in television
8. Travel to Ireland, London & Paris
9. Buy a digital SLR professional camera
10. Buy an iPod (yes..this is an actual goal of mine)
The camera and the iPod and travel are my three lavish items for spending.
Europe USD$4,000
Camera USD$1,300
iPod USD$ 400
TOTAL $5,700
DONT ask me how I want to get mortgage approval and buy property and STILL spend like 6,000 dollars. I guess I am REALLY going to have to hustle real hard.
Anybody want some negroid hair to buy?
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